Happy Mother’s Day

This entire week I’ve been a bit overwhelmed with emotion knowing that Mother’s Day was on Sunday. Mother’s Day. A day that has always been my mom’s day. A day that I never thought would be reserved for me.

Well…that’s not entirely true. Buddy, the good doggie that he is, gets me a card and a Starbuck’s gift card every year since I rescued him. He’s really thoughtful.

All my life I thought I would be a dog mom. I would love my four-legged fur babies like I had birthed them myself. But once I got married, I wanted a child to love and raise with the love of my life. I couldn’t believe I had this feeling, never having it before. I had heard about it from friends and relatives, but never had it happened to me. I remember asking my mom years ago about the concern of not ever having the “feeling” and her response was, “I can’t promise that you will have it, but if you do, you’ll know it is right.” I felt that response was a bunch of hooey. Such a mom answer. But, just like she said, I had the feeling and it was right.

We found out we were pregnant just a couple days before our first wedding anniversary. It was the best present! We were beside ourselves. We spent the next eight months preparing for baby.

We downloaded apps so that we could track baby’s approximate growth on a daily basis. We turned my office into a nursery and decorated it with a Peter Rabbit theme. Matt researched every baby accessory on the market for its safety and durability. Then I approved the final purchase based on aesthetics; it was a great compromise. We read everything we could about babies and also took parenting, cloth diapering, and baby wearing classes. And the week before the baby was due, we felt we weren’t prepared at all. Panic set in. Could we have done more? Do we have everything we need? I think I called my mom on the hour with tearful questions for a week straight. Her response always was, “you’ll be fine, you’ll be great parents, now get some rest.”

Padraig was born on Aug 22, 2012, and all my fears and anxiety went away when the doctor placed him in my arms and I saw the overwhelming look of joy in Matt’s face. That day I became a mother and every day I strive to be a good mom.

I have a great person to look up to as an example and I hope that I can be half the mom she is to me. Everyone I know calls her Martha (as in Martha Stewart). She could plumb a bathroom, make some curtains, plant a flowerbed, and have a crown roast on the table by sun down. She’s also one of those moms that is everybody’s mom. Have you known women like this? They’re amazing. She has an endless amount of love to give and so many people over the years felt my mom was their second mom. I can’t ever imagine being like this. It’s amazing that I remember to put on pants most days.

Growing up I remember telling my mom I couldn’t believe she made my baby food and used cloth diapers. Wasn’t it gross to rinse out diapers, wash them and reuse them? Why in the world would you spend the time making baby food that you could buy in a jar? As soon as I found out I was pregnant, I started researching cloth diapers. For so, so many reasons they are better for baby. As gross as it all is, I don’t seem to mind washing diapers. Funny, isn’t it?

And, without hesitation, I have made all of his food since he was able to try solids.

In so many ways I am turning into my mother. Every time I hear someone say that about me, I don’t cringe. I smile, because it would be such an honor to be a fraction of what she is. This photo of us, taken when I was 12 weeks old, really sums this all up.

She has held my hand through every aspect of my life since the day I was born. And now, I must do the same for my child. Last Mother’s Day she gave me a locket with the above photo inside. She left the other half empty for a future photo of me holding my child’s hand at the same age. My father took the original photo in 1978, and we had him take the photo in November of me with Padraig.

I rarely take this locket off and I love that as I browse through pictures of the last year, it is visible in so many special moments. Like this one from Christmas after we opened our matching Sky Caps my mom made us.

Matt has a special morning planned, for us to spend together as a family. He wanted our first Mother’s Day to be just us; I couldn’t agree more.

Happy Mother’s Day everyone and enjoy this special day celebrating your mother! And in case you need a last minute gift…wouldn’t mom love a membership to FIFC 2013 or a gift certificate to the knitspot shop? I know this mom would!

24 Responses to “Happy Mother’s Day”

  1. Maria says:

    Aw! You made me cry! Enjoy every minute of your first Mother’s Day!

  2. GeniaP says:

    What a beautiful tribute to your mom.

    Ever since my daughter was born, I have wondered why people carry on about the sacrifices mothers make for their children. As far as I’m concerned, motherhood is one of the greatest gifts in the world. And nothing you do for your children is a sacrifice if you’re doing it because you want to, because you love them.

    I promise you: motherhood just keeps getting better as your children get older. At least it has for me for 41 years, so far.

  3. Coletta says:

    Beautiful post! I love the locket – what an amazing idea.

  4. Mister Knitspot says:

    Happy Mother’s Day Erica, a lovely/endearing post. Padraig, a wonderful childhood awaits you.

  5. Josée says:

    I have a mom just like yours. How very fortunate we are.
    Happy Mother’s Day to you. Padraig is a lucky little boy.

  6. Beckie says:

    Happy Mother’s Day Erica! You are blessed!

  7. Aura Perez says:

    Erica, thank you very much for these beautiful words. My mother is no longer with me, but you made me think how good she was. Enjoy your first Mother’s day.

  8. Kyrie says:

    Erica – I lost my mom this year and it’s been rough leading up to Mother’s Day, but this brought (good) tears to my eyes. Moms and kids still love each other and the cycle of life keeps on rolling. Thanks for reminding me!

  9. Roseann says:

    Crying now. Happy Mother’s Day, though!

  10. Linda in NC says:

    Lovely! Happy, happy Mother’s Day!

  11. Linda says:

    Fantastic post. Laughed out loud at Buddy’s thoughtfulness. A great weekend to all at KS.

  12. Penny says:

    A most touching post. Happy Mother’s Day!

  13. Hattie says:

    Very sweet post, hope you have a wonderful day, there’s nothing like being a mom!

  14. Judy says:

    Wonderful tribute to your Mom, Erica! And blessings on you as you celebrate your very first Mother’s Day!

  15. Laura says:

    We just had our first little girl on April 26th and when I looked over at my husband looking at our daughter for the first time and when they gave her to me! Most awesome moment ever! All I could think was how beautiful and wonderful she was and I really hoped I wasn’t one of those parents that had an ugly baby and didn’t know it!
    Cloth diapers have my family looking at me like I’m crazy but I don’t care its not hard, it’s better for her and she’s so cute in her little purple diapers! I already plan to make her baby food with food from our garden.

  16. Terese says:

    Padraig is one beautiful and very lucky little boy! Being a Mother is the greatest gift ever! Happy Mother’s Day Erica!

  17. Jo Morgan says:

    This was such a sweet tribute to two wonderful moms!

  18. Torre says:

    What a touching post – thank you! I love the locket – how very special. I’m glad you had a wonderful 1st Mother’s Day!

  19. Cherie says:

    Awww… Happy Mother’s Day, Erica! Hope it was a grand day!

  20. Margie E. from NYC says:

    Hello, Erica:
    Hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day…the first of many to come.
    Loved your story. Loved the photos. But – still love those cheeks. A real charmer.
    Best regards, always -
    M/

  21. josiekitten says:

    Hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day Erica. What a lovely post.

  22. catherine says:

    So sweet! Hope you enjoyed your day!

  23. Mom says:

    Well I’m truly moved by this post, the tears flow every time I read it. Thank you for your amazing words and incredible respect you have for me, I am truly blessed to have you as my daughter. I always say when people speak of how wonderful my children are, I say that it was the luck of the draw that we got the children we did, which I know is really not so, because your dad and I have tried very hard to be the parents that you speak of. I am in awe of you and all that you have accomplished so far in your life, and can’t wait to see what else you have in store for me to be in awe of!! Thank you for being the daughter that I always dreamed to have, I couldn’t be more proud of you and THANK YOU for my beautiful Padraig, love you!!!!

  24. Lori on Little Traverse Bay says:

    What a lovely post!